My
dearest friends and family:
This year has been full of incredible lessons and abundance of joy. I am truly blessed in the fabulous growth and development that hit me FULL ON in 2004.
This
year I found my heart. I fell in love… and I fell out of love. In doing so,
I became very clear on the qualities that I seek in a life partner and the
declaration that I am READY and WILLING to take that next step into
relationship whenever the opportunity presents itself again. More
importantly, I found an unconditional love and acceptance for myself, where
before I had always been my harshest critic and adversary. The constant
question, “Am I doing it RIGHT?!” has become less prevalent in that repetitive
monologue in my head…
This year I found my voice. As much as the Libra peacekeeper always wants to be liked by EVERYONE, this summer I experienced the lesson of evicting a tenant for the first time. In some respects, it felt like a personal failure that we could not work things out amicably. However, what I really learned were the limits to my boundaries… what I would allow in my home, and what I would not. Making a stand to have my values respected felt liberating, despite the unpleasantness of confrontation. The new roommates that the beautiful Universe sent to me have been AWESOME. Our house is now full of super fantastic, positive juju!
This year I found my cruise control. After 8 years of being ticket-free, my statistics of consistently letting my “lead foot” do the driving finally caught up with me. On November 9th, I was pulled over for zipping through a construction zone that was posted 35 mph. Little did I realize that the one drink that I had earlier in the evening at a concert would be enough for the officer to write me up with a DUI as well.
Starting January 3rd, my driving privileges will be suspended for three months and my petition against the DUI may possibly take me to trial in spring. With more education on the 0.08 BAC law, I’ve learned that my 100 lbs is technically impaired/intoxicated according to Arizona state regulations with 8 oz. of wine… regardless of whether I feel tipsy or not. The breathalyzer doesn’t know; it just spits out a reading.
Not
only have I quit speeding (Gypsy Blue is in charge of all the driving), but I
now know that I cannot have even ONE DRINK if I intend to drive myself or any
of my friends home. In the end, even a high taxi fare across town is still
way cheaper than the headache of legal fees and fines!
This
year I found my inner quiet. I further stretched my body and my mind by
continuing the yoga practice that I started last November. Not only do I
physically feel at the top of my game, but the peace that comes from the
breathing and meditation of my practice has done wonders for my mental and
emotional balance. I discovered that I enjoy staying at home in my pajamas
with a blanket and a book as much as I love dancing until the wee hours by
thumping speakers… and my ear drums don’t ring at the end of the night either
;)~
As I look forward to 2005, I can’t even begin to imagine what surprises are awaiting me. In the mornings, when I take the time to create my intention for the day, I ask Spirit to surprise me with new lessons, wonderful experiences, and enlightened teachers. May your surprises in the New Year bring you delight, happiness, love, and light! I love you! Namaste :)
